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The sex early on was great. But tailed off fast. Not much change pre/post kids. It's just been a gradual transition to where we are now really. Only major event that I feel had an effect was when her parents discussed selling their house (where she grew up) - that was a step change for the worse, but I wanted to support her through that, with the assumption that everything would get better again. That's all I've been doing for years really - hanging on in the hope that things will get better. It's in the last few months that I've learned and realised that things won't, or at least are very unlikely to, get back to how they were in the early days. That has made me feel trapped and more than a little hopeless...
Like I say, I do think she's awesome, but it's the kids that are keeping me here now. Without them, I'd be out of here, definitely. I need to get back to believing we can fix this, otherwise I'll probably end up being pretty grumpy etc...I don't want that.
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